To all whom i love and love me so ...

Its been hard to blog an entry without feeling all emotional about home. The past week has not only been challenging but interesting, filled with the upheaval of many emotions at the same time many assurances from God and loved ones around me. I was confused at the deep sense of longing to be home with mom, longing more than i've ever had over the many years here. As i slowly come to terms with the emotions, i saw the deep work of God beginning and continuing in me. I saw Him preparing me to capture His calling more upon my life, a daily decision that requires a life long of consistency and obedience. I saw Him deepening my trust in Him, a total trust that is not a gamble, no conditions attached, but trusting Him in what i have and what i do not yet have. The faith of Abraham who trusted God when Sarah and him seem barren, and trusted God again to offer Isaac as a living sacrifice, sacrificing a son whom he loved and waited a long time for. I saw Him preparing me to marriage, reminding me that the union of a husband and wife is almost next in line after my union with Jesus. I asked myself that besides my satisfication found in Jesus, can i be fully satisfied with this new family that He is bringing me to establish with Kelvin? Can i find my contentment without constantly running back to my mom for love and support? The biblical principle of un cleaving from your own parents and uniting with your husband/wife. What does it actually mean?

I saw Him at work in my relationship with mom, opening up conversations that spoke about my trust in Jesus and His plans. He brought tremendous love and support. Understanding deepen as we shared about life and marriage. I look forward more that future relationship with mom will go further than a mom and daughter relationship, one that i too can bring support to her in her later years

God has brought many to my path to encourage and support me. Many girl friends around me, in care group and church made efforts to spend time and share their experiences with me. Even my pastors who took turn to have lunch with me and gave me many insights. Kelvin who calls and sms me whenever He could to bring and remind me sweet thoughts from him and Jesus. I can't thank each one enough to measure up the imprint each has made.

God is a good God, shouldn't my life continue to bring Him praise, celebrating His presence daily?