Lessons from Mom

the main thing now is the praying and preparation of Sub D advance over the weekend. However i decided to take a short break from it to pen down some lessons i have learnt from my mom. As i poured out to God this morning of the feeling of lost now that mom left for Singapore last night and that how much i have grown to know, feel and understand the extent of mom's love God reminded me to go beyond just that reminising of how nice it was to have the company of mom around and wondering when i can ever have such a chance to spend that mother and daughter time again.

God has placed my mom specially for me as a life example i could follow and look up to. Qualities beared often blew my mind and leaves me to wonder when i would ever be "fit" to be a mom. I was filled with hope just to remember that i have the empowerment of the holy spirit, and at the same time a tangible person i could learn from, both through observation and at the same time, first hand experiencing the warmth of mom's love.

1. demonstration of self denial and willingness to give their all ~ mom gave her career, her physical body, her youth and every thing she has for us (my brothers, dad and I; and now the additions of my niece and nephew) She seeks the best for us, best part of the fish, best material goods she can ever provide. She wakes up the earliest (till now!) so that i have my breakfast, my lunch, my vitamins
2. almost a human giver of hope and one of the best human cheerleader. She hopes and she believes from the time i failed in my studies all through to now, believing in my future and my capabilities to be who i can be, as a person, as a wife, as a daugther
3. ENDURANCE: Pregnancy, motherhood, birthpains, marriage (not that dad was no good! He was great! :) sleepless nights, our teenage rebellion .... she endured them all. Mom shared to me this trip of the hardships she went through, deaths in family, things that happened along the years, just so much and i take my hat off, that she had held it all through with positiveness, hope and love
4. detailedness to remember just everything. What we love to eat, size of my clothes etc etc
5. her unconditional love (the best human version of God's love; not a perfect love, but still, she loved with her strengths and with her weaknesses)

There is so much more, and its hard to pen them all down without the lump in the throat i kept having to swallow. How amazing that God has placed physical families to help us to understand who He is. I am glad i know God, because through Him, He lifted up the spoilt wretch within me who used to compare how some other families are better, but has placed in me a heart of thanksgiving. Through Him, i learnt to love and to experience love. Thank you God, Thank you Mom. I Love you too!